On the sunnyside...

Breakfast today was pretty great. I actually had time to sit down, and I had:

1 slice of healthy life white bread topped with cinnamon sugar and butter
4 pieces of Oscar Mayer bacon

Crazy as it seems, it lasted me until 12. Of course, I was in a meeting from 9:15 to 10:30, so it distracted me somewhat, but still.

Lunch was one cup of Chunky vegetable beef soup. My stomach began to turn just as I was finishing it, but I consider it an accomplishment that I finished it! Then I had strawberry jello for dessert.

Dinner becomes the hardest meal of the day.
I have NO idea what to cook.
Our staple meals are usually:
Hamburger helper
mac n cheese
spaghetti... (do you see a trend here?)
lasagna
skillet meals that have pasta and chicken
chicken strips and french fries

Wow, looking at that list, no wonder I had issues with carbs. It doesn't help that I have a stressful/busy/crazy job which leaves me with little energy for inventive meals.

So, when you take all of that away...and you couple that with the fact that I am SO SICK of skinless chicken breast... you wonder what else is there? Especially when you grocery shopped for the month before deciding to go low carb.

So, my question to you is:

what is your favorite thing to make that is healthy, low carb, little to no prep, and tasty?

Please put the recipe in your comment, or at least give me some ideas. I am by no means a culinary expert (as I've mentioned before) so simple and easy is the best for me, haha.

[Please and thank you. I know the girls that read this are great cooks, so I'm excited to learn new things!]


On another weird and perhaps scary note, I've noticed today that my kidneys are...aching. (At least, I believe they are my kidneys due to looking at a human map online). It's by no means excruciating. It's a very dull ache, and not constant. I searched a little, and found that there is at least one thread on the web that notes a PCOS girl having slightly aching kidneys after upping her Metformin dosage.
Um... that's a little, scary?

The woman said that once she decreased her dosage and increased it again, she was fine. But I really really really really just want to get through this week, because then I will be on the official recommended dosage.

This is further proof that I don't want to be on this medicine for my whole life. There's no telling what it could end up doing to my kidneys. It appears that there's been no link to Metformin and kidney problems...yet. But it's one of those things that could come out years from now.

In other news, one of my good guy friends and his wife became pregnant several months ago. They found out recently that it's a girl.

Upon finding this out yesterday, I had my first heartsick emotions in a while.

I know that when I do finally become pregnant, I will be happy with whatever gender my precious child is. But, Wesley and I would really really really love to have a girl first.
I struggle being scared (and full of self-pity) that, because my life has been full of dissapointments (pathetic, right? this is so not true...but that is the self-pity part of this), that when we do get past this infertile period, I will try and try for a girl, and will end up with a house of like, four boys.

This is when I get scared.
I mean, seriously. All I can think about is 'Home Improvement', and what Jill had to deal with having three boys in the home (basically four, because her husband was like a big kid). What a nightmare!

I did read an article recently that talked about a woman who has tried so long to have a girl, and kept having boys, and the small heartache she went through. But then someone told her something encouraging: God has entrusted you to raise Godly men. He has given you so many boys because he knows you will raise them as Godly men and leaders.

I thought that was a happy little spin to a potentially depressing situation.

I think once I become pregnant, these thoughts will go on the back burner, and I will be content with whatever.

But oh, wouldn't it be lovely to have an adorable little girl with curly dark brown hair and gorgeous big brown eyes? I can already see her in my head, actually. She's beautiful.

One step at a time. :)

What's left?

I'm developing food aversions.

Right now, it makes me sick to even think of these foods, but I want to document it...so I'm going to brave through this.
-eggs
-chicken and tuna salad
-yogurt (this is a new development, but I could barely get it down this morning)

Who knew that this medicine could make me have food aversions?

Also, I didn't get very far through lunch today.
Wesley took me out for lunch, and I sat down at Dixie Castle to a beautiful meatloaf, mashed potatoes (the rest of my carbs for the day) pinto beans, and cole slaw. I was so happy to actually be eating REAL food. I think I actually did a little dance in my seat as I savored the first bite.

I got a few more bites into it and started feeling nauceous.
I got a to-go box, dangit.

Oh, and randomly, when I woke up this morning, I weighed myself for the first time since...Wednesday? and I have lost another three pounds.
I blinked several times to make sure I was reading it correctly.

It could be though that yesterday was not good to me in the slightest, and I probably easily drank a liter of water and then some.

I can see how people lose weight on this medicine; when you're nauceous all the time, it's difficult to gain!

But hey, I'm not complaining too terribly bad...right? I'm happy that this medicine is going to hopefully help me get down to a healthy weight and also regulate my insulin.

I'm just sad I can't enjoy my comfort foods like I used to.

Ugh...

Just when I thought I would be ready for the increase in my Metformin dosage...the side effects decide to come back with a vengeance.

I WILL go on to 2000 mg. I WILL. The sooner I get used to the highest dosage, the better.

This could be a rough week.